Turning from the Bitter Path to the Sweet Path

As a co-worker spouse, the two get together in the light, with nothing to hide, thus truly reflecting the relationship to one another. Marriage is the result of love, but many people unconsciously fall into hardship caused by each other’s weak temperament. Lake and Miranda joined the Publishing Department simultaneously, and after hearing Lake’s sharing, I deeply felt his sincere reflection and the insight from his heart:

Due to the arrangement of the book production, there was a chance to hold a meeting in Pastor and C-mo’s home. How blessed and interesting it is to come close to see Pastor and C-mo’s interaction. On the surface, I see Pastor always compromise for C-mo, but I feel that they get along really sweet and tacit.

When C-mo let me share my feeling about being a co-worker, I expressed my gratitude of serving together with my wife, and having this ministry meeting, I unexpectedly revealed my disrespect and impatience with my wife. Then I honestly confessed that my well-hidden image was broken and I felt the pain and shame on me, but it is really my true self. I realize that I am such a selfish, self-righteous, proud and arrogant person, with no patience, no pity, manipulative, inconsiderate, easily-angered, and with high standards.

Where does this disgusting character come from? Where is the root cause? I remembered my father who had passed away, whom I loved and feared. Since I was young, he strictly disciplined me and rarely appreciated me; but if I made a mistake, he would inevitably beat me and embarrass me. I always think that I should be doing well, and that I deserve punishment if I am not good enough. I had once determined that I would not treat others this way. I did not realize that the influence of the family’s personality was so far-reaching, and no matter how I suppress or hide myself, I would not succeed. Therefore, when I came to 611, I especially appreciate our gentle pastors, and the most respectable one is Pastor Joshua.

Through ministry, God revealed my furious side to my wife in order to make me change. Even though I want to change, I realized the road ahead would be painful and hard, as difficult as turning a fierce lion into a sheep.

Praise the Lord; Pastor Joshua said that C-mo and he had interacted for many years before they reached the current unspoken understanding. His word seemed like a glimmer of dawn to me; I am determined to fulfill my wife with the gentle love as what Pastor Joshua has given to C-mo, and determined also to make C-mo’s creativity my lifelong learning goal. Though I know this painful road is not easy, I am sure that as long as I am willing to continue, the end of the road will be sweet.

As husband pleases God, and is able to support and fulfill his wife to make her happy, it will be a sweet road of life and bearing plentiful fruit. [2020.04.19]